Well, we went to the doctor today and unfortunately no progress from last week. Logically I know it's more likely to have the baby after our due date than this far before, but still, a part of me was really hoping we were further along. I know it's better for her to stay in there as long as she needs - I'm just so excited to see her little face, little hands, little feet that keep imprinting themselves on my stomach. But only a few more weeks, right? Then I'll be thrown into a new world that I really don't think you can prepare for. I've read books, taken classes, arranged the nursery, but I know this doesn't prepare you for motherhood. Especially for those first few weeks.
I'm trying to keep an open mind about everything as we go through this process. If I need an epidural during labor, I'll take it. If breastfeeding doesn't go as well as I hoped, then I'll go with formula. My sleepless nights will be different with someone else needing me every few hours. Now I just do whatever makes me comfortable when it's pitch black outside and I'm wide awake from hip pain. That will all be okay, because I figure the more flexible I am with my expectations, the easier it will be on me, Baby T and Ryan.
I still can't comprehend how much our lives are going to change in the next couple (few?) weeks. It will be for the better, I'm sure. It's one of those unknowns that I just can't wait to know!
That's what I am anticipating, I was so tired yesterday morning and was trying to comprehend how I am going to make it through the first few weeks/months being so sleepy. The uncomfortableness is settling in.
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